#Seriously tho the world is crumbling down I need positive stuff in my life asap

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(gonna make a little meal with this) 🥛🍯🍞🍅🌿

I see what you did there 😂💖 i’ll put it under a cut because it got long as usual 😂 

🥛 Milk: What is a food you find comforting when you are sad?

I’m not exactly the sad-eater type. I usually don’t even have much appetite when i’m actually feeling down. I’m more of that sad clishé of a drink-when-sad type. My go to drink is always going to be gin&tonic but than there is that low low point when i really don’t care what it is as long as it’s not too sweet. But thankfully i’m more stressed than sad these days so i can avoid drinking alltogether as much as possible. I mean my lifestyle is enough of a mess already to be unhealthy so i try not to add anymore variables to it.

🍯 Honey: What is one thing you like about yourself?

If i want to be perfectly honest, i’d say nothing really. And if you allow me a little bit more honesty: i don’t keep myself in high regard, hell no, not even close.. even if i can come off as arrogant at times especially irl. Or so i’ve been told. I can filter myself a bit better online, at least i hope i can. It’s mostly due to the fact that i do have, among other things, self esteem issues, but who doesn’t? Everybody shields themselfs in different ways. But back to the topic, i’ve never seen myself as a person witn any wirth or whatever. I’ve been kind of a problem kid all my life soo.. i don’t know. There wasn’t really a reason to see any value in myself because no one did for a very long time. I just.. accepted the fact that i exist in the world the way i am, i interact with people the way i do. I definitely have qualities that others may deem positive or likeable but i don’t know... I don’t see basic human decency as an achievement because it should be the default. It sadly isn’t in my experience but is should be. I am what i am, i am who i am, and people either vibe with it or not, there isn’t much to it i guess? Wow did i just talked a lot of depressing shit about basically nothing. Don’t mind me, i’m just having a moment here.😂 But seriously as i reread it, it sounds so bad but like.. i don’t see it that way, never did. Everything’s cool.

🍞 Bread: Do you know how to bake bread? If so, what is something you’ve baked recently?

Yes i do know how to bake bread and all sorts of stuff. Actually i’m pretty good in the kitchen. I love cooking in general, tho i don’t really have much time nor energy to do it. What did i baked recently.. butter bread cookies! Or whatever they are called. They are perfect with tea or coffee or just by themselfs. I love them. They are riddiculusly easy to make and they taste so good. I’m not saying they are pretty because i don’t have the patience for the chocolate but the taaaste is the important part. And the crumbly texture. Oh boi.. you made me talk about it and now i want to make them again. Crap i really have to do it because from monday i’ll have no gas for 10 days. Oh no. I need to bake cookies asap.

🍅 Tomato: Have you ever gardened, and if so, what is your favorite thing to grow?

I did with my mom when i was a kid. My parents house has a decent sized garden and my mom likes to plant stuff and grow all sorts of things. My faves were tomatos because i’m not good at keeping things alive and tomatos are not very dependent things. I had this little stick with a ribbon to put it beside my tomato plant to mark it and everything. I was like 7 or something? It was fun. But now i’m nowhere near any place where i could grow stuff and frankly, that’s probably a good thing. I was only able to keep alive one (1) houseplant all my life. And that thing needed almost as much care as i do. Wich is basically none. It never got sunlight so it’s leaves adapted and whited out with small really dark green spots. I contantly forgot to water it but it didn’t really cared about it. It was funny actually, when i moved to an other city, my mom decided that she is going to take care of that plant.. And she put it into a bit more sunny spot, and the leaves evened out into a solid light green, and it like.. died in 2 months.. Also nowdays when i’m home i usually just help out with whatever, like cutting grass or shovel up some parts. I don’t really have time for anything else also i’m barely back there, so no point in investing in something i can’t take care of. I feel bad enough about my cat being left there, making others to take care of her in my stead.

🌿 Herb: What is a scent you find relaxing?

I think i talked about it before so excuse me if i’m repeating myself but the sent in the air after rain. It’s soo nice. I can’t not mention it every time. Also sue me for it but i find the general sent of gas stations with the oil vapors mixing with everything else suuuuper calming. Like.. i’m not sure if it’s weird or not but i don’t know, i just love it?